Light in the Darkness

For various reasons 2015 has almost certainly been one of the most confusing, unhappiest and darkest years of my life. For a lot of it I’ve felt rather like Joseph in the song from the musical “close every door to me, keep those I love from me, darken my daytime and torture my night”.When it has seemed as though everybody else was permitted into a world I wanted to be part of, it has felt as though my windows were barred and the light shut out. So those tiny little spots of sunshine and hope have revealed themselves in deep contrast to this prolonged cloud of doom and despair, searing my heart like lightening on a thunderous sky. Today’s chance of light was a kestrel alighting quite close to where I stood. It’s colours and glance were so vivid that I felt so moved and privileged to be visited at such close quarters by a wild creature. It swooped and twirled right in front of me and in lifting my heart reminded me of Gerard Manley Hopkins’ Sonnet.


To Christ our Lord
I CAUGHT this morning morning’s minion, king-
  dom of daylight’s dauphin, dapple-dawn-drawn Falcon, in his riding
  Of the rolling level underneath him steady air, and striding
High there, how he rung upon the rein of a wimpling wing
In his ecstasy! then off, off forth on swing,         5
  As a skate’s heel sweeps smooth on a bow-bend: the hurl and gliding
  Rebuffed the big wind. My heart in hiding
Stirred for a bird,—the achieve of; the mastery of the thing!
Brute beauty and valour and act, oh, air, pride, plume, here
  Buckle! AND the fire that breaks from thee then, a billion         10
Times told lovelier, more dangerous, O my chevalier!
  No wonder of it: shéer plód makes plough down sillion
Shine, and blue-bleak embers, ah my dear,
  Fall, gall themselves, and gash gold-vermillion.

Also from Joseph, Any Dream Will Do.



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